What's been happening in my life?

I don't know really. A lot of just really regular stuff, I feel like a normal, human, teenager. Friendships are great, relationships are non-existent, but boys are budding and parties are pumping!

I leave for Camp A Low Hum on Friday night and today Olwyn and I did our shopping minus snack and alcohol. We got a lot of fun things that we'll barely use after Camp A Low Hum, but it was a nice change racing around The Warehouse with a trolley full of things instead of shopping for clothes and only being able to buy one item. Olwyn and I have costumes for each of the after parties, so it should be quite wild. I'm really looking forward everything and I won't be back until Wednesday morning on the sixth.

Today when I got home dad and I went for a swim down at the beach here in Island Bay and even though it was ridiculously freezing it was an amazing, refreshing and beautiful dip. I was beginning to regret not going to Island Bay beach often this summer when it is just five minutes from my house, but I'm going to start using the sunshine wisely and go for more swims.

Tomorrow I promised my little cousin, Nicole, my limpet, that I would take her to a movie. That's what I am doing tomorrow then.

See, things are just so quiet for me right now. I just feel like I am doing regular activities, some with a little more edge, but still, nothing wild. I guess I'm just saving all of the crazy up for Camp A Low Hum!

Next blog will most likely be about Camp A Low Hum and should be up at some point between my return and when school starts again. That gives me under twenty four hours when I get home.

People are nothing, unless you let them be something.

Looks Just Like The Sun

In the two hours that I have been up, I weeded the first part of the garden, made two phone calls to dad, made a coffee, freaked out over a swarm of ants, sung out loud, made a list containing the words 'inflatables' and 'fake blood' along with other miscellaneous things and got stung by a bee, then saw a butterfly - convincing myself a butterfly symbolises death and that I am going to drop to my knees any second and die dramatically.

Camp A Low Hum is near and I have not idea what is happening with the bus transportation and when I am going to have all my money to buy/find everything on my Camp list. It's going to be fun/ny though. I already have my zombie costume made and I'm killer at doing stage make up so I can't wait, but for now it is back to work with Broken Social Scene and [bring back out] the sun.

Auckland's Burning

NCEA Level 2 Results

Staying on the North Shore was a totally sweet deal. Olwyn and I had our own apartment, a pool, a bar and farm with animals. It was privileged and extremely fortunate, but that's just my family. I don't remember the exact order of everything, but it happened.

Laying on your back in the pool, with the sun shining on your face, eyes closed and ears under water was a pretty lush way to cool off, but at Big Day Out all we had was the misting tent.

The best New Zealand band I saw was Cut Off Your Hands. I've seen the guys play quite a few shows, but I never fail at enjoying myself. Olwyn and I were right at the front dancing and singing along. I am pretty sure that we were the only two in that crowd who are going to Camp A Low Hum (where the band are later playing). Cut Off Your Hands really kicked off my buzz.

Dizzie Rascal had me dirty. I have never sweat so much at a show before. Getting in to the Boiler Room was a suicide mission, but when Fix Up, Look Sharp played it made the creepy crawly fluids and bikini tops all okay.

Arcade Fire are such performers, Olwyn and I got a good spot to watch them play and were singing and dancing along while they went mental and climbed the scaffold. I'll admit that I was pissed off at the timetable change, causing Arcade Fire and Battles to clash, but because Arcade Fire were so incredible I was content, in an overly-thrilled way.

Bjork is a psycho in her own artistic manner. We were standing next to Liam Finn and his girlfriend during the first part of her set. Only Bjork can have a whole brass band on stage that all look like clones. It was fantastic.

LCD Soundsytem was wild, constantly dancing throughout the whole set, I felt so lost in the heat that I was up for whatever. Olwyn and I joined Ben, Joellene and Dan for a dance, but the boys left to catch Brand New, while us girls stayed behind to lose our breath.

I saw plenty more sets including White Birds & Lemons, Shy Child, Liam Finn, Kate Nash and Rage Against The Machine plus bands that I have already seen; Die!Die!Die!, The Checks and Pluto. We heard Op Shop, Spoon and whatever else. It was all pretty go-go, unlike the city.

Auckland City is filth. I never want to live there because I cant handle how disgusting and rude it is. Although the High Street area gets props. I only bought one thing and it is the Lonely Hearts Club peace dress that I got from My Hart. Olwyn bought the most incredible Karen Walker dress and Ruby waistcoat. I was ridiculously broke with only $77 left in my wallet, yet I tried on Mala Brajkovic shorts which were sample size 8 and therefore only $75! If I had the extra money I would have bought them because they looked wicked cool and made me feel like killer slimmer.

During the Auckland trip I met Olwyn's friend Zac from Napier who is really neat. He's into comic books and spent $130 on them! Basically I thought that was a pretty radical way to spend money. Zac was a nice guy though, good company and pretty awesome. I like the fact that he was good with sarcasm.

I also met Libby for Christchurch who is the most adorable and totally cute styly girl I have ever met, in all honesty. Libby bought me cigarettes to the Big Day Out because I was all out, that's how cool she is. Plus she's the best person that I have met on MySpace and then later in real life. I'm looking forward to properly having a meeting with her sometime this year.

When Olwyn and I were around High Street I was texting Harry and he wanted to know if I saw Sam Focas in Zambesi, and I did. Whoppie...?

I think that the Sexist Sale Assistant should have gone to this killer guy in World Man. This guy had taste and style from the strands of his hair to tips of his toes, but not only that, he was so lovely to talk to and wanted to know all about Big Day Out and how Arcade Fire and Bjork were. He asked what I bought from My Hart and approved, so I figured I should ask him out on a date and we went to coffee later that day... All in my head!

A girl I use to go to school with is now working at Area 51 and I bumped in to her which was a surprise, especially because we both had the same boots on.

Finally I met Jack from wherever he lives. He carries thick fucking layers of cash, so mug him.

Olwyn's sun burnt and I've been eaten alive. Being away in Auckland made me appreciate Wellington so much more. Even though Auckland has some different boutique's it isn't a place I would want to stay in, maybe just pop up for the occasional shopping day trip. At least in Wellington you have a heart and can find a cafe that isn't Starbucks. Maybe my opinion would have been less harsh if I had time for New Market, because New Market is quite alright.

I haven't had a decent sleep since last Thursday and my body is so exhausted. I feel like all I have done is abused it. My insides are hating me. I think my stomach needs a lining, my lungs a break from smoking and kidneys a slip of water.

I have $51.50 left and a film to be developed. I am excited to see what I actually got on my film. Two events down and one to go!

As for NCEA Level 2 in 2007 I cleaned up quite well. I have just correctly calculated my results and I am proud of what I got. I'm sure there were a shit load of people who did a lot better than me but I like school, enjoy all my classes and felt as though I worked reasonably hard and deserve my result (I'm not the smartest person alive) so let me enjoy a little glory.

• Out of the 107 credits I could get in Level 2 I got 104 credits.
• I didn't complete one paper: 90380 unfamiliar text in English by choice, so I failed.
• I passed NCEA Level 2 with merit by getting getting 58 of my 104 credits in merit or excellence.

Make it electric

I've enjoyed my weekend, although most of my energy was used up on Friday night at the concert I savoured some to make an appearance at Joellene's 21st last night.

The party was totally great even if I only knew a handful of people, they were a tasteful bunch to be around. The music was loud, the dancing was happening and there were so many smiles, but not little ones - I mean, big fucking grins!

I have been having terrible nights of sleep and I feel as though my body is rejecting me. Lunch time today will be my first proper meal since whenever and I am looking forward to it because it is my Nona's pasta.

A few days ago I was crashing fast and I thought that I would end up in that absolutely shitty depressed state of mind, but at some point I stopped and found my happy again. It's strange because I feel like that was the first time I have sub-consciously picked myself back up when I was so sure that I was going to be stuck in a rut. I was truly sinking deep at a ridiculously fast pace and it's so good to know that I am not there.

Aha Shake Heartbreak

Kings of Leon was honestly and very truly incredible! I danced until my feet were killing me and sweat was pouring off me. I was singing until my voice sounded like shit and the high got all natural.

Unknown Pleasures

Control directed by Anton Corbijn and it has earned it's place in my favourite films alongside Alice In Wonderland and Candy. I could go on and talk about the film and give you the plot, but I am not ready to. Watch it, unless you don't like Joy Division. This film deserves appreciation.

Up The Line

I joined Olwyn on a trip out to Save Mart today and I bought two items which are both a little complicated to explain, so you will have to wait until someday you see them. Well they're actually complicated to explain, but the fact that I have a headache which is basically torturing me isn't making words easy.

After Save Mart we went further up the line to Otaki where we had lunch at the Brown Sugar Cafe and then looked around the outlet stores. My favourite store was the H&M one. There were a few really neat things that looked better on me than on the hanger. I originally tried them on as a joke, but ended up liking them. I still don't have a job, so I am struggling on my allowance money, which is generous but I still have Auckland etc. to go to. I had to restrain myself from buying things.

Tomorrow Olwyn and I are going to see Control at the movies. I am starting to get excited because even though I watch movies, I rarely ever go to the theatre. I wonder if I will walk out in awe or absolutely hating Ian Curtis - hopefully not.

Kings Of Leon are playing on Friday night which kicks of my concert/festival season. Then next Thursday on the 17th I will be flying to Auckland for Big Day Out and staying there until Sunday 20th. In February I complete my sixth form holiday with Camp A Low Hum. I will be leaving on the first and returning on the sixth, missing my first day of seventh form.

Olwyn will be with me for all these events.

I feel like I am back in year five writing to my teacher, Miss Bailey about what is happening in my life at the moment. It was a class thing we would do often. Apparently she got fired, but that was just rumour. What else do you expect from an all girl private school?

Breaking the law, breaking the law

NYE 07/08 was totally great. I spent it with bottles of alcohol, rolled cigarettes, a pipe packed of weed, the sweetest tasting strawberries and the best group of genuine good vibe boys and girls I met last year. I am so glad that I have met so many outstanding personalities and feel comfortable with who I am becoming at such a young age. I didn't make a New Year's Resolution, I think I will just let things be.

2008 is my last year of high school and being a minor, it is going to be fill of travel and brand new experiences. I am so excited to be living and am ready to float in to the Kings Of Leon, Big Day Out and Camp A Low Hum concerts/festivals with my rock 'n' roll spirit.

Ben's flat mate Edward can Tyrannosaurs Rex dance like no other, it is such an obscure talent that he should be incredibly proud of. He had me laughing so hard my jaw was hurting.

It is a year for hunting and getting what you want, and I want a calendar.